His and hers: Lee's vase is on the left, mine on the right.
Well. It has been a long time, hasn’t it? Months, in fact...In some ways, lots has happened, but we still have so much to do, so far to go. This *is* life, isn’t it? Silly. There isn’t really anywhere to go, Yolande. You are you, are me, are us, are them. Ok. Here I am.
The fact is, (as many of you, I’m sure, were aware--long before I was, probably) I needed a break. Moving is always a bit hectic and stressful. But in many ways, we weren’t just uprooting our family, our studio, our kilns...we were also facing some harsh realities about our work and our approach to how we went about making, and living, and now, readjusting to re-locating in Queenstown, and in a sense, to being in the world. Moving.
I had resolved to take a short hiatus, and to begin writing this blog again after a series of landmarks had been reached: our home is set up; our studio is renovated and ready to go; our gallery is open and operational; our new website is up and running; our kiln is built and firing. Oh Yo. When will you ever learn. These things may *never* be completely ready, and certainly not when you desire. It’s ok. Here I am. None of these things are done, but we are in motion, and it feels good.
These past few months--this mild winter--have been a period of reassessment, convalescence, and then, in a small way, reawakening.
I worked quite a bit during the end of 2011 and 2012, doing jobs that took me elsewhere; teaching piano, working at the library. Lee stayed home with the kids. I pushed it all, as usual, too much, and then I crashed, and was sent to bed, big time. For essentially a month, I was confined to my room. Lee cared for me, and Horus and Treva, and the household. I am told, that at the apex of my sickness, in a state of fevered delerium, I often became hysterical--babbling and crying over...pottery, especially (as well as my mother, the pear-tree in the backyard of my childhood home, along with other obscurities). But when I finally came out of the haze, I took some time to think about where we are going, what we need for ourselves and our children--all almost-three of them (this new one is kicking and spinning--he/she will be out in August, just a few days before we leave to g to Vancouver--see below!).
This way. The empty studio beckons. Cool clay, hot fire.
So Lee and I sat down and talked about pots. And bricks, and rocks, and dirt, and kilns, and colour. And the kind of life we want for our children. And I tried to be patient with the challenges Lee has with numbers, and planning and...remembering....And he tried to be patient with my propensity to over-plan, and my impatience, and the challenges I have with, well, numbers...And it's ok.
And suddenly, it was spring. It *is* spring (or almost-spring--spring-like).
So here we are again. In the real world. (!) I feel like I’ve come to, a little bit. Nothing is perfect. Old irritations remain, but I have a slightly new perspective, new hope, new energy and inspiration.
And I’m pretty excited about our new kiln. It was humbling to take down the bourrigama two years after building it, especially since we were so blatantly faced with the reality that...it wasn’t a very good kiln, really. We had a couple of ok firings, and lots of gorgeous individual pieces came from it... But Lee and I were both essentially disappointed with the design.
Now, our anagama is going up in a matter of weeks. Just in time to fire a couple of times in order to create two bodies of work: one for our two-person (Lee and I) exhibition in Vancouver in September, and then again for an exhibit here in Fredericton of work by the five potters in New Brunswick for whom woodfiring is a focus: Ghita Levin, David Eastwood, Darren Emenau, Yolande Clark, and Lee Horus Clark.
Once again, it’s a bit of a crazy plan. Once again, we’ll be ok.
I have been reading lots of the musings of other potters lately, and thoroughly enjoying all the fb pottery photographs, and all the wonderful blogging going out out there in the virtual world. While I am pretty ambivalent about the internet much of the time, pottery-related web stuff is the good part. There is so much gorgeous pottery out there, and I have resolved to dedicate more time here, on our blog, to looking at, writing about, and celebrating the work of other potters that Lee and I find inspiring. The more great vessels that come into the world, the better. I’m happy to be back.
Sincerely,
Yolande